So I finally decided to grow some balls and took myself off my meds and finally accepted that i have TSA/RSS. So not sure how this is gonna work but hopefully I should be blogging pretty regularly ( compared to before ) but dont think theyre going to be that interesting because really, this is a diary for myself. Anyways, symptoms right now ( and photos in the future when i start not giving a fuck )
Peeling like the biggest bitch out. Dry and flakey in my usual "good" areas and even worse on my forehead and around my mouth. Neck is wet and watery and eyes are gross, lumpy, mucusy and hard to open
Worst part of all. Somewhat wet, but not oozing. Flaking in little bits, red, burning, sticky, dry and fabric is getting stuck onto my skin
All good right now, only a little redness
All good right now, little hives of redness and not much and only on inner thigh
Still on only green leafy veg and brown rice. Having poached apples though which is making it so much less depressing. Missing my potatoes, bananas, meat and basically everything and crying too much over lack of food l0l
So far, sleep pattern is sleeping between 2-6am and waking between 2-5pm
Feeling shitty about everything. Crying too much for my own good. Feeling depressed about my lack of social life and missing 4 birthday parties hasn't helped. Mum has been amazing, along with guy friends who are being the most understanding, amazing and funny fucks out :-) Feeling like I dont want to talk to a lot of people and ceebs in replying to messages and texts. TV shows are keeping me happy :-) Yearlies in about a week and I havent been able to study because of the lack of focus + depressing feels but mum has been amazing and telling me she doesnt care. Kinda really scared about missing out on 2 terms of school. Melbourne trip is most likely off which is shitty because that was legit the only thing i was looking forward too.
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